Caroline Flack has committed suicide at only 40 years old.
The former “Love Island” star Caroline Flack, wrote an emotional apology to her family before taking her own life. She was found unresponsive in her London home on Saturday, February 15th.
A message on Social Media
Flack, 40, had intended to publish the message on social media before being talked out of it, according to her family, who released the unpublished post to the Eastern Daily Press Wednesday — just hours before the coroner’s office ruled Flack’s death a suicide. She was in the midst of facing a court trial for allegedly assaulting her boyfriend, tennis player Lewis Burton, called the incident an “accident” and said she had since lost everything.
Caroline wrote in her notes app, “For a lot of people, being arrested for common assault is an extreme way to have some sort of spiritual awakening but for me, it’s become the normal. I’ve been pressing the snooze button on many stresses in my life- for my whole life. I’ve accepted shame and toxic opinions on my life for over 10 years and yet told myself it’s all part of my job. No complaining. The problem with brushing things under the carpet is… they are still there and one day someone is going to lift that carpet up and all you are going to feel is shame and embarrassment.”
She goes on to continue to talk about the assault, “On December the 12th 2019 I was arrested for common assault on my boyfriend… Within 24 hours my whole world and future was swept from under my feet and all the walls that I had taken so long to build around me, collapsed. I am suddenly on a different kind of stage and everyone is watching it happen.”
“I have always taken responsibility for what happened that night. Even on the night. But the truth is… It was an accident.”
Caroline then started mentioning an emotinal breakdown, “I’ve been having some sort of emotional breakdown for a very long time. But I am NOT a domestic abuser. We had an argument and an accident happened. An accident. The blood that someone SOLD to a newspaper was MY blood and that was something very sad and very personal.”
“The reason I am talking today is because my family can’t take anymore. I’ve lost my job. My home. My ability to speak. And the truth has been taken out of my hands and used as entertainment.”
She finished it off with, “I can’t spend every day hidden away being told not to say or speak to anyone. I’m so sorry to my family for what I have brought upon them and for what my friends have had to go through. I’m not thinking about ‘how I’m going to get my career back.’ I’m thinking about how I’m going to get mine and my family’s life back. I can’t say anymore than that”
Important to release the note
Flack’s mother, Chris, told the Eastern Daily Press that she felt it important to release the note.
“So many untruths were out there but this is how she felt and my family and I would like people to read her own words,” Chris Flack said.
“Carrie was surrounded by love and friends,” she added, “but this was just too much for her.”